And then what?

29 Jan

I may have written about this earlier, but it kind of just hit me yesterday that there are many people around me who get excited when really fat people lose lots and lots of weight. And then they get disappointed when they put it all back on again.

When I hear that a forever fatty (its what I call myself: as opposed to being an adult fatty only for example) has lost lots of weight, I know that it is only a matter of time before it comes back on again. For, it is called losing weight, which much more often than not ends up being found (and then some).

I know what its like to be a forever fatty embarking on a new weight loss regime. Every kg lost excites me. I imagine myself all svelte and dressed to the nines. But in the past it never occurred to me what happend what I lose weight. It never occured to me to realise that there is more to it than just losing weight. I can say with all honesty that the only weight I have maintained successfully are that of being 96kg that I maintained for a very long time and my present 120kg. I have never ever maintained a healthy weight.

It never occured to me that I needed to maintain a healthy weight. Ever. I just thought about losing. I would lose and get to a comfortable size, and then start eating again, because I was slim! How stupid? Really? How stupid to think that I was like the majority of civilisation who can eat normally and maintain their current healthy weight?

Well I have woken up people. I either have to keep dieting for the rest of my life and be miserable or I continue to be fat and miserable.

Or I put my faith in lapband.

Maybe I can lose the weight, continue to maintain my weightloss and live a relatively full life? Maybe?


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