Is this what freaking out feels like?

7 Dec

Yesterday, I had my pre-op blood tests and ECG. Apparently, many women are getting the lapband and going throught his one place to have ther pre-ops. I was asked to go back a few months post-op so that they can see what I look like! Pressure much?

I am freaking out. I want to eat all the bread and meat I can before the surgery. I don’t know what is happening to me. I just want to eat. It’s awful. I feel like I am setting myself up for failure and it fucking freaks me out.

What if I fuck it up? What if I fuck it all up and not let the band do its work?

Shit

 

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