:-)

2 Jul

Starting Weight: 131kg (288.2 lbs)

Current Weight: 111.3 (244.9 lbs)

That’s a total of 19.7kg! (43.3 lbs) 🙂

While the numbers make me happy, why do I feel more insecure? Suddenly, out of no where, I worry about how I look. When I was bigger, it was kind of like I acceoted that I was fat and disgusting and wore whatever and didn’t care. Now, it takes me ages to get dressed. I feel like I look ok now, maybe more than just ok, and I want to wear the right thing. It’s doing my head in!! Anyone else have this problem?

The other day I got told that I no longer look obese, just overweight. Yep. FUCK YOU for saying that. Not what I wanted to hear. Ever heard of being a little nice? Maybe say something like, “You’re looking good”? Fuck you.

Negativity aside, I’ve nearly lost 20kg now!!!!! 🙂

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3 Responses to “:-)”

  1. Jenna July 2, 2012 at 2:05 am #

    Yay!!! That’s really exciting.
    As for feeling more insecure, it sounds ridiculous, but because you are starting to feel better about yourself, you start to care more about how you look. When you are overweight, when it comes to clothes (well this is what it felt like for me) the top priority is to feel comfortable, then how you look comes in a close second. As you lose the weight, how you look becomes more important as you start to care more about how you look, because you feel better about your body. Ironic I know…….

    • Year2Band July 15, 2012 at 11:30 pm #

      You’re totally right Jenna! Overall, I am more comfortable in my clothes, so it only makes sense to care now about how I look. Thanks for your comments btw! 🙂

  2. Ronnie July 2, 2012 at 2:19 pm #

    Aww, try not to be offended. People really do mean well, they just don’t know what they can and can’t say around people losing weight. I’d just be happy someone noticed and chalk it up to social awkwardness on their part. 🙂

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